I am easily triggered into a feeling of contraction by thoughts of death and loss of loved ones. As a child I feared the loss of my mother, and not knowing how to be an adult. Now I fear the loss of my husband (his death). Fear of not being able to take care of my self in old age, to be incapacitated, in a nursing home. Not trusting myself to be a good money manager. So many dark future thoughts it’s hard to be present and relaxed now. How do I shift out of this ‘imprint’? It seems like the more I focus on the positive the worse I feel.

It sounds like you are suffering from the impact of core fractures.This can be a trauma you experienced during your life time, or one that you inherited the imprints from in your DNA.
nThese types of traumas can result in fear of success and fear of loss. Both of which can leave us crippled in our abilities to enjoy life and prosper. The answer lies both in Recoding DNA for Success and in Repairing Core Fractures, and possibly even Clearing Toxic Emotions if you are feeling any anger, bitterness, shame or resentment.Be patient with yourself and know you are currently working on a key component that will create exponential positive benefits in your life.